heaven

The second dream of my double feature was ironically about heaven.  I say ironically because in the same night the first dream of my double feature was about demons (which you can read in the blog posted right before this one).  The dream started out a little morbid, so brace yourselves.  There was yet again a hospital, but this time it was a real hospital.

The dream began with me and a bunch of people sitting down in a hallway.  Yet again, i didnt recognize any of these people, but they were suppose to be my friends.  Well, i did recognize one person.  He was sitting right next to me.  His name was Micheal.  I would say he was a cross between Michael McKenry and Grant Ross.  I understand most of you dont know both of these people, so for those who know at least one, you may get the picture.  It was Michael’s turn to go next.

Michael held onto my hand tightly as this lady, who im guessing was a nurse, did something to his back.  Seconds later, Michael slumped over.  You would think something like this would scary me to death, but…it didnt.  In fact, it didnt scare me at all.  For some reason, it made sense to me.  Then, it was my turn.

The nurse lady came up to me and, just as delicately as she could, she cut the tiniest slit on my right shoulder.  I looked over to where she had cut, and said something like, “is that it?  that’s all?  that didn’t hurt much.”  She replied back to me, “no, that’s not it.  there’s one more i have to do.”

I’m sure you all are wondering, what the heck is going on!?  Well I’ll tell you because at this moment in my dream, i knew exactly what was happening.  The nurse lady was killing all of us…morbid, i told you.  But it wasn’t like she was murdering us…it was like she was doing her duty.  All of us who were sitting in the hallway were waiting patiently to be killed.  It was as if we all knew it was our time to go and we were at peace with it.

So, as im looking at my right shoulder and the nurse lady is telling me “no, there’s one more i have to do”, she pulls out a box cutter and slowly inserts it into my back.  I began bracing myself thinking this is going to hurt, and then…nothing.  I didnt feel a thing.  I opened my eyes and said, “i didn’t feel anything, that didnt hurt.”  I dont know if she numbed the area first or not.  If she had, i didnt feel her do that either.

Now, all i can think of is that the first slit made on my shoulder was to relieve blood pressure, and the second insert was to cut a main artery or something.  Either way, in a matter of seconds, i was no longer sitting in the hallway of a hospital holding Michaels hand as he laid slumped over…i was in heaven!

This is where the dream becomes amazing!!  I dont think ill ever be able to explain how incredible I felt in heaven, but ill try (if real heaven is anything like my dream heaven, then i cant wait to get there!)  I’ve had only one other dream about heaven and I had a very similar feeling.  I will definitely blog about my first heaven dream soon.  So, the moment I arrived, I had this overwhelming sense of peace and joy in my spirit.  The only comparison i can make to this feeling on earth is when the weather 75 and sunny, you’re out on a sail boat, theres not a care in the world, you are happy, and life as you know it is perfect.

Once I realized i was in heaven, i began to notice everything around me.  The grass was the brightest green I’d ever seen, the sky was the deepest blue I’d ever seen, and there wasn’t a cloud in sight.  It seemed as if i was in some kind of park.  There were no streets, just sidewalks.  No cars, or the noise of traffic…only the quietness of the land.  Oh, and some random shopping centers far off in the distance.  This was especially odd since, as most of you know, i highly dislike shopping.  The next thing I noticed, or person i should say, was my mom!  I immediately ran up to her and hugged her tight.  It was as if she was expecting me.  I was so happy to see her.  We hugged and talked about how amazing our spirits felt being in heaven.  I only saw one other person way off in the distance.  She was too far for me to get to her, but she was there. For once, I did recognize one of my dream friends…her name is Allie Becher and she is from MO.  She is an amazing girl and i think the world of her!!

The odd thing was, i didnt see anyone else in heaven.  It’s not that i saw people and i just didnt know who they were.  There was no one else there…just my mom, allie, and me.  So immediately i started asking my mom about people in our family, “where’s dad, where are my brothers, where’s jonathan?”  Sadly, she looked at me and said, “they arent here.”  I began thinking, “they arent here?  what!?”  I didnt understand.  I became very sad very quick.  Then i realized, what a second…God says He will wipe our tears away and that there will be no sadness in heaven.  At once, I began thinking, “this can’t be heaven!”  This must be a place right before heaven or something.  A place to wait, a place to experience the peace you will eventually feel once you get to the real heaven…the heaven where all your loved ones are, your friends and family…and then i woke up.

This dream really made me think…”how can heaven be amazing when the people i love may not end up there?  is there redemption beyond the grave?  There are a lot of people out there that debate this very topic everyday.  Now, there is no way for me to answer these very important questions, but it does make me want to love on my family and friends and reach out to those who are at the moment just acquaintances.  I cant imagine heaven without the ones i love…so, i want to share God’s love with them and anyone else i meet as much as i can.  I can’t wait to get to heaven WITH all those who i love!